Today, I found this heart at Point Isabel. As soon as I picked it up, I knew what I was going to write about on my blog: A clear-hearted acknowledgement of the value of our feelings.
Usually we hear about being clear-headed. It often means not allowing ourselves to be swayed by our emotions, as if our emotions muddy up the sparkling clear water of our intellect. My experience is that my head tends to muddy up issues more than my emotions. I don't know about you, but I can argue almost any side of an issue. I almost always rethink any position I take by addressing the other side of the issue and coming up with reasons why I should reverse my decision. Sometimes I can ponder an issue for weeks without coming to a clear-headed decision pro or con.
My heart, my gut, really, always seems to know the right choice for me. First I get an immediate feeling about the rightness or wrongness of any decision, then the war between my heart and my head begins. I want to defend the impulses my heart arrives at, but sometimes I can't. Often I have no idea why this or that choice feels right or wrong. Yet I think I need to know, prove myself right, somehow, with intellectual arguments supporting my choice that are rarely satisfying. I seem to think that I'm in arbitration, that some judge is going to find me guilty or not guilty for making the choices I make. Who's life is this, anyway?
Lately, I'm learning to be more clear-hearted, to just choose, and leave off with the justifications. The heart I found in the dirt of Point Isabel is a sign that makes even my head think I'm on the right track. (Thank you Universe! I can use the support.)
I once asked my Tai Chi Teacher, Starfire, how you tell whether you're following your head or your heart.
"Well", He said, "The mind changes, but the heart wants what it wants."
I think it's clear. Follow your heart. It saves time.
Love, Kristine
