The page of Pentacles is an interesting card to have pulled so close to the Holidays. The flash of meaning I got immediately is that it speaks of youthful dreams and nostolgic-based future creation.
Here's what I mean by that:
The Pages carry messages for others, they don't themselves know who they will be when they grow up. They are only just coming to understand their own power to create the life they will live. They are apprentices, really, and their creations are youthful ones, full of idealism and promise.
They hold the past in their hands (the disc) as a tool to anticipate and create the future, i.e. they create an idea of life based on the dreams and examples of their parents, the boasts of their peer group, the demands and expectations of the educational system, the heros and mores of their culture, etc.
Their life experiences are limited, fresh and uninformed, and their ideas on how to live are based on what others have told them. They know what to fear, what to love, what to expect, what to hold dear, what is pleasurable, what is right and what is wrong because their elders and teachers have told them these things. They have not yet experimented with these concepts and learned how THEY feel about these issues.
Our past can define our present and influence our future in an unconscious way that might not serve the person we have become; for we are not our past. I think this is one of the most important messages from the universe, that we need to sort out who we are from what we think, what we've been, and what we've done. How do we do that? I believe that if we feel bad, then what we are doing is not the right thing for us. If we feel good, then we are in alignment with who we are. Our emotions tell us who we are and who we are not all the time. Using our emotions a our guide, we can discover our true nature.
A friend of mine spoke of a civics teacher who taught him how to think critically. He had worked very hard on an essay that basically rubber-stamped his parent's beliefs. After laboring over it, he reread it with his newly aquired critical eye and realized with a shock that he really didn't believe anything he had written. His life as a Page was over, no longer was he interested in carrying his parent's messages into the world. It was time for him to move away from his parent's ideas and form his own views in order to live a more authentic life.
Thanksgiving and the winter holidays can be stressful times.
Because of their repetative nature, they allow us to see and feel the split between who we are NOW and who we were then so much more clearly. If the split is percieved as a painful wound seperating you from yourself and your loved ones, the holidays are a miserable affair. If the split is understood as a record of your growth on your journey toward your authentic self, then you will be able to see and celebrate how far you've come. When looked at in this way, the holidays can be a true time of enjoyment.
Have a Happy Thanksgiving!
Love,
Kristine
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